When I am sad..

I will recall things that make me glad...(sounds like a song in Sound of Music Musical, eh?)

best friends. warm colors. flying kites. yummy & tasty food. sweet stuff. sophisticated stamps. long silence. songs. flower fragrance. walking in downtown. bike. chant. Word. G-d.

moving in, moving out

This year some of my friend will move to other countries...so sad... funny.. they are currently in different places, but somehow, to know that they are moving away gives me a mild grief. Perhaps moving to other places will mold them and contribute to their personality development (am I fear of changes?). Perhaps I just want to know them just as I knew them yesterday, forcing the memory into reality without supporting their growth.

Wishing you all the best, friends.. God be with us 'til we meet again.

less human

Few days ago I visited a bookstore. And, to my surprise, a moment of wonder came into my mind, " After a year, how could I lose my appetite of all interesting things outside Christian ministry: novels, art, fantasy literature, music, song, films? Am I less human by neglecting me?" Flashed back...not even one novel that I read within a year. No new art exposure and knowledge. No development in expressing emotion? (I realized that I smiled more often to people, but difficult to release / sublime my anger, distress, and other negative feelings) Uh-oh.

Phew, thank God for his kind reminder that offering myself to God does not mean ignoring my human needs. I have done wrong to half of my own being. I should have committed my needs and interests above to God, and continue to nurture them as my offering too. Anyway, loving me would result to loving others completely, and not only taking care of their churchy side of life.

Well, thank you for reading this funny note.

Waiting Room

How do you feel to be in a waiting room?

Of a dentist: anxious.
Of a job interview: prayerful.
Of a flight: excited (perhaps, unless you are leaving somebody behind).

Do you like to be in a waiting room?
we are in God's waiting room. The big waiting is his second coming. To this, we are expectant, watchful and  strive to be faithful.

keep watch, take heart.

hooeekkk

Lord, every time I want to vomit, let me come to you and humbly ask for your grace and mercy..day by day... acknowledging that ministry is by grace alone..